Ever since my journey to India, I knew that I would return to the far East to study Thai Massage.
I had several yoga students of mine that were encouraging me to continue my travels.
One full moon, I caved in to my desires.
I booked a cheap plane ticket to Thailand.
I felt immediate remorse for my decision.
Here I was, a poor young yoga teacher, staying at my mother’s home, trying to escape reality.
What I really needed in life was to build a foundation.
After all, I discovered in India that I had searched the entire world to find myself, when all I had to do was look inside. . .
And here I am trying to run away from everything once again.
If I was going to go through with this, I would come back with no home, no job, and no money.
That pushed me to stop payment on the transaction and postpone my journey.
I had created a huge mess between the travel agencies, airlines, and my bank — but finally, I got my money back.
Instead of a plane ticket, I got my own apartment, and hunkered down for about a year and a half.
Circumnavigating the sun in that little apartment transformed me more than any journey around the world could.
I had no furniture, no A/C, and barely used the electricity, so I could save money.
My favorite memories were resting in my room.
I had these old Christmas tree lights, that I found in the dumpster, strung across the ceiling.
I read the Koran cover to cover, listened to the entire Torah, and learned the Gospels.
I stopped worrying about everyone else, and started focusing solely on myself.
During that time, I just went to work, and came home to rest.
I taught a few people yoga from the comfort of my own living room.
And other than that, I didn’t do anything. I didn’t invite anybody over, and I never went out anywhere.
It was a very strange time for me. . . I was voted “life of the party” in high school, and went on these adventures after being “over involved” in college.
I became very thin and almost frail.
But through this self induced hardship, I came back home.
I finally went back inside of myself and reconnected with Yah.
And by some turn of events, I looked into my bank account and saw that I was financially secure.
It was time to go on another adventure.
My yoga teacher from Venezuela told me about a school located in a small hill-tribe village.
I would have to “ruff it” for a few weeks, but it was supposedly the best Thai massage training for a novice like myself.
I remember riding through the forest and around the mountains in the back of Truck singing, “In The Jungle The Might Jungle” with Europeans, Asians, Australians, all on our way to Lahu Village.
When we got to the village, I climbed up to the bamboo platform where we were going to learn Asokanada’s method of Thai massage.
I looked out into the valley, gazed on the flowers, rice patties, and coffee fields.
There were chickens and pigs roaming the village — children chasing each other around their huts.
I thought to myself, “this is the coolest thing I have ever done.”
I turned to the woman next to me and said, “this is the coolest thing I have ever done,” and we looked back onto the scenery.
I was enchanted by that view every morning when I did my qigong, in the afternoon as I learned massage, and in the evening as we sang and danced together.
I came home to practice this massage sequence every day on someone new.
Eventually, a co-worker and dear friend of mine told me about an opportunity to practice Thai massage.
A few days later, I opened the door of Zen Zen Nail and Beauty Lounge, resume in hand, and met a Laotian woman named Lillie.
She showed me a cluttered room that I could clean up and rent for my practice.
Before I knew it I was practicing Thai Massage in my hometown, and achieved my aspirations.
It seemed like after getting to know myself, The Most High(s) opened all of the doors for me.
The real achievement for me was coming back home, and letting Yah guide the way.
I leaned that nothing is possible without Yah’s grace.
It is my intention moving forward to fulfill The Most High(s) will, and not just spontaneously follow my own desires.